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Friday, May 28, 2004
-=| Today dun need to work....... |=-
Yay i today dun need to work...... i slep till 10++...... wahhaz...... so nice.....
2morrow is Truddy n Tricia's babtising date...... juz now wrapping presents 4 them..... sigh..... im rushing actually...... now 3:30.....have to bathe.... go tuition..... go cell..... then come home...... muz rush........ i still havn't wrap Tricia's present.....

On the MRT..... i was thinking over abt babtism...... here Truddy n Tricia r gettin babtised...... and when am i getting in the pool...... My parrents r comparing me wif my friendz like...... "Oh Amos is babtised last week u noe...... when r u gettin babtised???" ..."Is Mingsheng babtised? Oh he is? why r u not babtised?".....

I feel very preasured to be babtised....... it's like sum sort of a peer preasure thingy...... i feel tat im not ready...... but my bible teacher says tat im ready.... im planning to dye my hair n stuff after the Os.....n maybe bcome a DJ in some radio station?? hmm it soundz worldly rite..... and there r many stuff tat a teenager wants to explore....like a club...... and have fun.... u might think im havoc... but this is the real me..... n no matter wad u cannot change me......

when i was young... i feel very frustrated....cannot watch tv on fri nite n sat..... cannot wear T-shirts like normal adventist children do.... must wear a shirt..... the shirt must tuck in.... muz wear this mus wear tat.... like a doll.... being dressed up by their owners.....

I feel tat it was a drag to go church(especially during 10-12) bcoze it's a day which is not myself..... everythin is being arranged by my parrents... onli after tat.... they careless on my clothes..... onli ever since then i was acting abit of a poser..... gel hair until spiky spiky..... all the church members commented on it..... then many more.....(i feel tat i went to this extend maybe bcoze im usually bossed around during my childhood years..... in pri skool....im being pushed around..... being mocked at... disturbed....and so maybe i juz wanted to be cool 4 a while....)

I feel tat in church(TCH) there r many bitches around..... they go around tokin abt why did this person do this n tat.... i hate being judged.... y can't anyone be special n unique...?

So maybe tats the reason why im so havoc...... or maybe as wad they say happening.....

J O E| 3:31 PM | Post a Comment

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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus