-=| She turned me down... |=-
hmm.... i feel tat this few weekz stuff have been happening in a orderly manner.....
Like on may 14th(fri) i was supposed to meet Kaylene after my Exam paper... i was supposed to meet her at 10am.... n she over slept.... i waited 4 her 4 1hr..... was supposed to be her manicure model 4 her mani~ exam....ahhaz sound girlly huh...ahhaz... aniwayz .... we went 2 her school ... n her school is fully booked..... i realised tat she didn't call ...oh man... so we went back to yishun to her house to do medicure... she juz shape it n stuff.... ahhaz.... so fun..... then she said lets meet another day 4 menicure.....so i was thinking lets meet this thursday since it is goin to be free..... n she said ok.....
Through the week mon n tues i was preparing to ask Babara tat 5 word question(can u be my stead?)..... i was gettin necklaces n ring n stuff..... then on may 18[wed](last day of examz) She told me tat she cannot go out on 19th of may..... i was like.... oh man.... all my efford wasted.....but nvm..... on may 19th i was like as usual chattin on the msn..... then i saw mel(one of my heart pourer..... i ask her 4 advices)..... then i ask her should i ask tat 5 worded question online.... as i cannot meet her.....she said go a head n ask...... i pondered 4 a while.... as we onli started to tok frequently 4 onli a month.... but i went ahead to ask her.... her reply was huh???.... i was like oh no..... then i joked wif her n said no lah ju joking..... n she was "=p" away..... so i tod she was ok.... then i told mell abt tat..... she said tat i should have went all the way.....feeling abit regretful.... i asked her the whole question again.... n she was like .... huh????..... n i tell her abt the whole thing.... n she had no replies... i was like so frightened..... so i explained to her saying tat if u cannot accept it... then lets continue to be friend n stuff.... n im glad she understood..... she was back to normal again(i hope)..... so i wad thinking of avoiding her this sat(at church)....
After the whole thing i received a phone call from my 3rd uncle... he said he need help wif his invoices... so i was thinking cool.... so i agreed..... i spent all afternoon typing the invoices.... n i earned $10..... ahhaz so fun
on thursday[should meet up Kaylene] then we canceled the meeting bcoze of work....n wanted to meet up on sat.... i actually wanted to skip church 4 a week..... to hide away from Babara... n to help out wif Kaylene.....ahha... wad a good plan... but it did not work out..... Kaylene's mum took off n she is goin out wif her mum... n the meeting would be canceled..... sigh... so i went to church..... i didn't see her in sabbath school... she came during the worship service.... i saw tat she has a guy friend wif her.... my heart kinda broke..... dunno why oso... my nose kept sneasing.... sigh.... so right after service i went n meet up my mum..... i took the MRT,through the MRT journey.... i kept thinking to myself...... who is tat guy..... why did she bring him to church... is he her bf? i felt so sour inside..... like there was lemon juice over the wounded heart.... oh man the feeling......
while waiting 4 my mum... i tod abt mel... i smsed her..... abt my problem..... n she kinda comforted me n stuff.... ahha... she sems to be my "doc"..... sum sort of tells me n comforts me alot.....
when i reached Yanwei's house (cousin's house) i was chatting on the msn...... =S.... n she came online..... i chated wif her....... n i asked if he was her bf.... she said he was not...... n i realised tat her ans r gettin shorter n shorter n i am so worried..... sigh...... would anything work out between us?????????
i was on friendster..... n i saw this posting by Babara...... the heading was "What would u do when u r down...?"
And she wrote.....
NaMe:°£oll¥pöP° aka *s.h.a.t.t.e.r.e.d*
MmMmMz..cry[cry myself 2 slp].eat lo+sa
ch0c0LaTes*.t0k 2 my frieNdS.stuff myself wif
lo+sa ic3-cr3aM*.LiSteN 2 Ji3 LuN dE
gE.p0Nder.haizz...
And i wrote.....
Name: Joel
i was juz down afew hours ago..... im still
down.... im now drowning myself wif lemon tea....
listening to techno as it brings my adrenaline
level up..... im reasoning out wif myself like
why am i sad..... and i used to bottle stuff
in..... but dunno why today i ask my friend abt
wad should i do.....sigh.....why did tis happen
to me.....
so u see..... things happen right after one another..... i wonder if thease r pure coinsidence...... or there is sum one behind it....... is it God which is helping me..... telling me not to ge into a relationship at a unstable condition...... n nomatter how i muz go to church?????? ahhaz... i wonder......=b
B!0
Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
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