Living Dead's Utter

Sunday, May 30, 2004
-=| I made it..... |=-
hmmmm...... have been quiet on sat...... i dunno wad to say......dunno wad to tell Babara...... See her n Wei siang...... is like drinking bottles of venigar...... lotsa venigar...... even when i was sitting next to Babara during the MAD session..... i dunno wad to tell her...... bcoze Weisiang was staring at her...... n some sort of a stuck on her.....hmmmmmm....... n we were in the same group 4 makin the chopstick structures...... n when Auntie Pek Yee broke his group up..... he was so happy n eager to come over to the group......wahhaz.... see his face like rushin 4 gold like he has not seen it b4........ he came over...... n set between me n babara........ i was like....... ok....... relax.......although i noe nuthin is between them....... i feel tat he is "interested in her" n is over protecive...... and when the Jabez group were throwing those loose chopsticks at the structures...... n ours didn't drop..... he was so proud..... n say "ni can.... wo men the shi bu hui dao de....".....i feel so irritated......ours really fell in the end......

Today i was workin in the office again..... typing stakes n stakes of invoices..... so scary..... so much to do...... i started at 10 finished at 4...... wahhaz..... so shiong....... then tommorrow dun need to go to work..... as i have finished alot.....

I was thinkin...... Babara's paper endz 2morrow.....i was thinking of meeting up wif her..... so fun goin out wif her..... can noe so much more abt her...... i feel tat it is very interesting to noe her...... i dunno how to explain...... but i feel very happy tokin wif her...... i dunno abt her........

Was quite disapointed tat she cannot make it tommorrow.... as she has already been asked out by her friends..... i ask her wad abt tommorrow..... she said she would see abt tat...... she said she would confirm wif me tommorrow..... i asked her where does she wanna go.... JE or bugis..... i noe she has been to bugis 4 many times... n im sure she is quite sian...... she said wanna so swinging..... i was thinking if she was writing in slurrs.... so i tod she was thinking of singing..... so i reply to her...u wanna go kbox sing huh..... she was lol.... then i ask her was is swinging.... n i say izzit sit on a swing..... she say yup... then i finally understand..... hmmm.... i wonder where is the swing..... should be quite nice..... she say got 4 summore.....hmmm..... im waiting 4 her ans patiently.......

Hmm.... then online i saw sean..... i was tellin him lotsa stuff.... from me to my sis.... to Christopher..... hmm..... i dunno why am i telling him so much stuff...... im really really worried if i were to empty my bottle on to him.....it would be spread all over the EARTH..... so far i have not heard any rumours yet.....
As ALL the topics r top secret..... some onli i noe..... some onli me n my sis.....hmmm.... im sure to be dead or counted as untrust worthy if everything is out..... should i juz keep sum stuff to myself...... im really in dead meat if sumthins out..... wad shall i do...... even this blogspot can be read b him..... should i juz set up another blogspot... n figure stuff out by myself?????......hmmmm....... he says i can trust him...... n im worrying 4 nuthin ..... wad should i do...... is he realy sent by God..... to help me??? i wonder..... Even my BIBLE STUDY teacher dunno as much as he does..... i feel tat the older generation doesn't really understand the life of a teenager..... they say they do..... they say they understand..... but it was inthe good old days where life is not so complicated...... they say stuff like a skool is a place to study n learnt... there is no such thing as politics in class..... but there r..... plenty of it..... n they dun understand.... thinking studies is very easy..... juz complain to the teacher.... n the stuff is resolved...... stuff r not so simplified nowadays...... some times i ask myself wad am i doin here on earth..... if i wasn't born.... i would not need to suffer all these sufferings....life on earth is study till u reach workin age.... then work until retire....retire then enjoy life... n then die...... n the bible teacher usually say stuff like we r here 4 a reason...... the reason is to win souls to Christ n stuff..... but as 4 me my self... my faith is not strong..... n there is a big question mark..... the week b4 last week...... gary was askin if anyone was ready to be babtised.... to be willing to give their life's to Jesus..... and Babara n the other guy who is Boonleong's friend stood up...... when i went up to Babara .... i asked her when is she gettin babtised... she said tat she is not ready...... so im really worried...... does people stand up 4 the sake of it...... or they really mean it..... or sum peepz r ready but dun dare to stand up 4 it.....

Below is a message i found in friendster..... sayin how a gal feel abt guys...

**Don't say you love me unless you really mean
it, because i might do something really stupid
like believe it**

**Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk
beside me and be my equal**

**If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to
be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to
live without you**

**If you love me, please let me know because it
hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of
me, don't go away because if you love me, you
will stay... i love you and do you know
why? "You got me when you first said 'Hi'."**

**Don't be too good i will miss you. don't be
too caring, i might like you. Don't be too
sweet, I might fall. It's hard for me to love
you when you won't love me after all...**

**You make me smile for no reason whatsoever,
you make me laugh at the unfunniest things, but
most of all, you make me love you When I
shouldn't be loving you**

**I dropped a tear in the ocean today, and when
i find it, that's when i'll stop loving you..**

**"One day you'll love me as I have loved you.
One day you'll cry as I cried for you. One day
you'll want me...and I won't want you.**

**One night the moon looked down at me and
said:"Would you give up ur "Prince" if he made
you cry? I looked up at the moon and say:" Would
you give up your sky?"**

**If I had the letters "HRT" and I could
add "EA" and get "HEART" or add "U" and
get "HURT", I'd rather have "U" and get "HURT"
than have a "HEART" without "U"*-

*There are only 2 times I wanna be with
you...now & forever*

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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus